Let's Play the Blame Game!

People blame me for things a lot. Maybe just a little bit too much. I don't like it when this happens. I feel like I've become somewhat of a scapegoat for my peers. It really isn't a good feeling, in my opinion. People say things to me, and I'm not exaggerating at all, like, "Blake, the Great Depression was all your fault." This may seem humorous at the time when the person is saying it, and I may laugh too, but I'm really hurt deep down on some subconscious level. Some very, very deep down layer of my mind absorbs all of this mental torture. I'm sensitive about this, but not sensitive enough to actually get directly mad at these people or stay indirectly mad at them for an extended period of time. Only now, thinking back on all of the things that I have been blamed for, do I really feel hurt. Sometimes I'll, I don't know, just sit down at lunch and an anonymous friend of mine will just randomly shout out, "GO HOME BLAKE!!!!!" I haven't gone home yet, but how much longer can I just sit and take this abuse? Often, if I am working in a study group, whenever I mention anything, my ideas are shot down with a, "NEVER SPEAK AGAIN, BLAKE!" I don't know what I've ever done to these people to make them react so strongly.

I don't really think that I blame people for things much, maybe just cause I can't fit in any accusatory remarks between others' abuse in the form of words. I guess I really only blame people of things in my mind, and only if I'm absolutely sure that they are at fault for whatever problem I may have. I guess I just kinda believe in giving people as many chances as they need to get something right, and this involves forgiving them instantly and moving on with life. Life goes on.

Deal with it.